I may have said this already, so do forgive me if I’m about to say it again. I have not always been shall we say “fat,” but I was always chubby. That being said whoever reads this and is considering surgery you need to know and realize that this is not going to fix all your problems. That loosing 100+ pounds is great for things like your self esteem and your closet, but if it was broken pre surgery it will still be broken post surgery. That the comments made to you as a child, the looks you got as an adult and all the scenarios that never should have happened but did are like knives that have cut pieces of your soul away and created the person you are. You need to realize that loosing the weight is not going to heal your soul.
In my life I have always set out to surround myself with people who could see past the way I look and see me for the person I am on the inside. This has not been easy. Sometimes I’ve discovered that the people who seemed to be your best friends in the whole world needed the “ugly fat friend” to score or couldn’t get past my fat thighs. And it’s easy for someone on the outside looking in to say here’s a tissue get rid of them and get over it. It’s simply not that easy.
Again I go back to the surgeon that said this is about you not about anyone else. I’m not going to say this post is about New Years resolutions because I am so past that point. This post is about why? Why I’m doing this and why someone who is reading this may do this. Do it because it will make you feel healthier so you won’t have to get up in the morning and be still all over or feel like you haven’t slept all night because you snore like a banshee. Do it because it will make you feel beautiful on the inside and out. Do it so you can say f-you to all those bullies out there who’ve made you feel like less of a person. Lastly, do it because you love yourself and you love life.