Hi everyone! Happy late Thanksgiving! Hope everyone had a fabulous holiday. My family and I tried to keep is small this year, our family had really shrunk in the past few months. I lost my aunt to cancer and a few weeks after my Grandmother passed from a heart attack coupled with her 90 plus years of age. Can’t say that they both didn’t have a good run, although the loss of my aunt was upsetting because she really lead a full life and could have had so many more years in front of her, but that wasn’t meant to be. So I spent the last couple of months cleaning out a huge house not thinking about blogging of course.
This brings me to what I am thankful for. I am definitely thankful that I had this surgery. I would not have had the stamina or the health to do half the things I’ve done in the past couple months. Of course I am thankful for all of my friends and family who have been supportive and encouraging over my journey thus far, and on a lighter note totally thankful I can lay down on the sofa and not have to move any of the pillows to fit. Really helps when you pull your back out lifting stupid amouts of heavy boxes! 😜
I’m still trying to drill into my mother’s head that I don’t eat that much anymore and we don’t need to cook so much food. I convinced her that since it was just the three of us we should just cook a breast, we ended up cooking half a breast and my mom roasted wings because she loves them. We did cranberry sauce, brussel sprouts, cole slaw and sweet potatoes, and stuffing and it was all so much food and it made me want to go invite people off the corner and feed them. At this point I can eat a slice of turkey and a Tbs or less of everything else we had. I also had to wait quite awhile before I had any desert because I was not passing up the pumpkin pie.
I occasionally mourn the loss of not being able to finish my platr or stuff myself to the gills, but it’s so much better to feel healthy than to feel like a disgusting slug. I’ve also had some difficulty with self image and looking in the mirror because I still see that fat girl staring back at me and although I haven’t done a ton of shopping when I do go to buy something I still feel “oh I can’t wear this it won’t look right.” So I took a chance to buy a dress for an event I’m attending soon it just came the other day I looked at this little dress and went “no way this is going to look awful!” I put it on and said to myself “oh that doesn’t look half bad.”
I wish everyone a happy, healthy, safe and wonderful holiday season. Happy reading!